http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lalf5uzVBdo&feature=player_embedded

Veselin Tasev - Blue Light [Arctic Moon Remix]

You're ruthless

i think you're more beautiful

caitlin montford:

1. 'i think this stuff is laced'

2. 'i'm tripping over these sidebars on the computer screen'

3. 'hamilton weed WOULD be laced'

4. 'bastards'

5. 'so i have this drawer next to my desk.
and you know what it's only two contents are?'

6. 'i bet you don't'

7. 'so i'll tell you'

8. 'a bag of marijuana and a flyer for "wing it".'

9. 'all it's missing is jena'

10. 'however furthermore therefore such as contradictory to whereas, i best be heading to bed now... or something. but this screen is just too brightly coloured and intense for my little eyes to bear at the moment. maybe i'll make my way back over sometime. maybe not. we'll see where the wind takes me. it's frickin windy up here. talk to you later woman.'

let me know when you're over this quarter life crisis bullshit.

its a secret we keep

i realized that i meant 'mason jar' instead of 'bubble'.

'she slips under the covers
out of sight

she covers her lover... '

you're the first person i want to talk to when i feel like giving up. you're the last person i want to hear telling me what to do. sometimes i want to shake you until you have shaken-baby-syndrome.

it really sucks that you like me so much.

backbone

this is the most magic time.

i wrote an anti-suicide note.

its a list of things i want people to know if i never get the chance to tell them...

it's filled with the things i wish i could have said, the things i'll miss the most, the words i'll whisper from wherever i am, sad things, love things...

maybe you're in it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWtZ54DYBdY&feature=related

i don't care.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IrE7mh7Emj4&feature=related

without you the ground thaws the rain falls the grass grows without you the seeds root the flowers bloom the children play the stars gleam the poets dream the eagles fly without you the earth turns the sun burns but I die without you without you the breeze warms the girl smiles the cloud moves without you the tides change the boys run the oceans crash the crowds roar the days soar the babies cry without you the moon glows the river flows but I die without you the world revives colors renew but I know blue only blue lonely blue within me blue without you...

JONAH
[ casanova-bleu ]
september

i miss your kisses

'and in the end, i just don't belong anywhere except on a rooftop with YOU.'

ps. were wearing each other's sweaters.

please just someone find her

i memorized the length of your arm
how many heartbeats it takes
to reach the end of your fingers
with mine

and that's the only thing about you
i'll ever want to know off by heart.

we're hardly close to each other, now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylg7Rlos9jY&feature=related

a million people want you. don't forget me. every day i find new places to take you.

JONAH
[ casanova-bleu ]
september

i miss you

the midnight streets feel dead when I am so used to driving with you

when i said 'stop liking me' what i meant was, 'don't stop liking me.'

Wes: You know you're pretty rad, right?

Me: I'm not, really.

Wes: That's fine Jenna. (he never spells this right) ..because I know it.

Me: That's like when I told her 'you might be the most beautiful I've ever known,' and her not believing it but that not mattering because I know it.

Wes: See. You get it. It's pretty cool knowing the most beautiful person in the galaxy, though.

Me: It kind of breaks your heart; just knowing.

Wes: I guess that's the price you pay.

Me: It's the greatest privilege besides music.

Do you have any idea how hard it is that this is the right thing to do?

just wondering.

She's a starseed

I'm a wallflower

"You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand."
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I'm also a lightworker

"can be starborn or earthborn humans who also have an awakening, with knowledge and skills to teach other people to recognize their own place in this brave new world."

"Often times, the lightworker may feel a bit isolated or different, as others seem engrossed in ego-based pursuits."

and I have memories of her

"their (lightworkers') vision of life is colored by a spiritual sense of how all things are related together. They consciously or subconsciously carry memories within them of non-earthly spheres of light."